In a hundred million years maybe

You already lost my attention

Span of time passes gently

Like waves lapping

At the edge of the river

Covered in orange, red, yellow

Fallen

Soon forgotten

I wonder what it’s like to jump 

like an eagle dares

Soaring, diving, darting

Wish I could be as brave as that eagle

Aerodynamic feathers

A predator..

But no

I’ll sit on the sidelines always

On the top of this mountain

That feels a hundred million years old

Surrounded by mountains, black sky, stars

Looking down in silence

As it all unfolds in front of me

Wondering

The golden children will

We were meant to be

The golden children

Beating the odds

Since we came outta the womb

Two months apart

In my mind..in my eyes at least.

Remember the snickers and the long stares?

You even barked at me in study hall 

(more than once)

Don’t you remember?

You know who you are

Flicked spit on my glasses

As I bared my brace covered teeth and snarled

You’d be cool I guess

But you dress like a bum

(I’ve never told anyone that before)

Shame me more

But we’ll be the golden children

Dare me. Dare us.

Just wait

You’ll see

I know you want to impress, I know

With your charm and your wit

There’s a show to put on

But in the end no one cares

No one.

But the band nerds…oh!!

Yes. Us..

The dep and me..

Transition lenses and all

Teacher!!! But teacher!!!

The jury of peers says 

Nope!

But we’ll rise

The golden children will

You

You pretty much saved my life

 Swooped in

Snatched me up in your arms

Too young to know what I’d seen

Where I’d been

Like a stray dog

The dregs

But you didn’t care

You were naive and an old soul back then

That black claddagh flew off my finger

Down an elevator shaft

A sign?

My heart hurts everywhere that it shouldn’t

Remember when you snuck that kiss?

It was the last

The room went dark but I still felt your pulse

You were a bird

You flapped and fluttered

And I decided to let you go..I decided!

And you did

Just like that you flew

And the haze

It overcame the light

It was too much..

it blocked you out 

Cloak and Dagger

Something is there looming

Right there over my shoulder

I can feel the presence of something

Menacing

I periodically glance back

It’s dark and heavy

I imagine a cloak and a dagger 

I don’t know if it’s just watching my movements

Or hunting me

But I don’t want to fall prey

I pray to a god I don’t believe in

To keep me safe

This was once my sanctuary

Not anymore! 

At night I hide under a blanket

I hold your hand tight

To keep the gripping fear

From tearing us apart

You’re the only one here

That’s ever made any sense 

My heart is like an anchor in my chest

Pulling me down

Further towards drowning

It’s too much

Sometimes I wish the earth would stop spinning 

So I could get off

Just step off into nothing

Hang suspended

Weightless

divided we fall

Take a look around

You’d never know it

Never guess

The tumult

There’s still the 9 to 5

The instagram and the facebook

The citizen times on the front step

leaves flutter in the breeze

There is laughter

People are living lives

Grass appears to grow

It rains

The rivers, lakes and oceans 

continue to ebb and flow

The sun shines

The moon glows

And the dogs are still chasing their tails

There’s a storm brewing tho

Oh there’s a storm

United we stand, divided we fall

Ghosts

I take your pain and your loneliness 

I hold it close

Wish it could fracture into a million pieces

With the pressure of my embrace

But it won’t

You whisper in my ear

And I think about the ghosts

Of my past

The ones I’ve been running from

Since as far back as I can remember

Try and forget but I can’t

Can’t run forever

I wear my guilt like a shroud

Kick the dirt

Bury me in it

Wilson Creek

I wanna float away on your breeze

And I think I will

Galax, catawba, mountain laurel, poison ivy

Yellow tail…ohhh sushi

No yellow buck!  Long branch?

Keep your eyes on the prize

Must’ve done a couple good things in a past life

Especially to find that unopened booty

An after dinner treat

“Better than your mom’s” says moni

Campfire

Smoke and embers

Screaming laughter

A skull in the trees..

Seriously!

I know you can see it

Possible orb sighting..

Even the david lynch bugs

Make me smile now

Rock me to sleep Hennesy

At daybreak I peek out

Swinging

On the edge of a cliff 

Rocks and river rushing below

The back of my head still aches 

From that rock we propped on

I touch it and remember

the sky and stars and trees

laughing so hard, writhing around

Gasping to breathe

After six litres

Unsteady rock hop out

And a climb almost as bad as pinch in

Homeostasis

This pain in my right side

Up under my ribs..

(Intermittent)

It’s distracting

Try to ignore it.

The pain in my jaw

(Chronic)

Hurts to talk, to think, to live

Your eyes though

You don’t speak, they do

It’s ok love

You’re gonna live forever

For a long, long time

Homeostasis will come?

You’re gonna do your thing

(Whatever that is)

You’ll figure it out

(Maybe)

Look into your own eyes

Who are(were) you

Back when?

I’m looking into a stranger’s eyes

No?

Don’t hide. Don’t lie

I see everything

Time ticks and tocks away

Dreams get more vivid

Wake up in a panic 

Grab my hand

Fingers intertwine and I know

For this moment at least I know

It’ll be ok

When it builds 

I choke it back

scribble it out quickly

And look

What a shame

Never what I imagined it to be

What a mess full of black smudges and lines

Ugly, harsh

Let’s lock it up

The color right now hurts my eyes

It’s so vibrant

Sound is more intense

More melodramatic

Dream/sound scapes sweep 

Stretch it out

Go with it

But it knocks the wind right outta of me

Gaia

The thought of your first breath on my cheek

Anxious, stir crazy, can’t sleep for shit.

In the dark I throw what seems like the weight of the world on my shoulders

Looking for answers only you can give.

My load will lighten I hope,

eventually.

The ascent is a real gut buster

Heart 160

Hope my stomach isn’t bleeding yet

A real ride you’re taking me on there lady!

You’ve taught me everything I know

And I trust you now. Always.

I know out here we play by your rules

You’re in charge, Gaia.

Just when I think I’ve reached my limit

Breaking down,

Defeated

You’re there.

All around me

And I no longer want to reach the finish line

Not now. Not ever,

Really.

Even with each fallen holly leaf that pierces my bare feet

Every jagged rock

That makes me bite my lip and cry out

Fuck You!

Even then..

Cause your smell

You!

I die for that smell, die!

Sweet death, dying, decay and then life

Struggling. Succeeding.

Gentle whispers in the night.

Yours!

Thank you, Gaia

Take me in your arms,

Rock me to sleep

Until blue morning gives way to light

And it starts all over

This is it

The beats!

They drive me

Them beats

Make me wanna dance

Make me start dancin’

I throw my hands up

And I move

I move like i don’t care! 

For a minute

I move

Rub pine needles between my palms

I breathe! 

I breathe deep

And sigh

With relief if just for a moment

I breathe

Look up to the sun and sky

Hold a tree

Hug it

(Seriously)

In the end

Nothing else matters

Fuck it

Fuck you

This is it

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