Nihilistic Nightmare

I’m at my best around misfits

But even they are skeptical 

Of my intentions

Stop and ask myself often sometimes

You still with it

You still in the game

You ready to call it quits yet?
It comes in waves

Sometimes it swallows me whole

Sometimes it doesn’t 

Sometimes I can save myself

Sometimes not

Charcoal lines slash

This way and that
What’s the point anyway

You’re given a life you never asked for

You toil away endlessly 

Damn right hedonistically 

You never said no pigs..

Sorry 
If you’re lucky

You find someone to commiserate 

To bide your time with 

Endure til you die with

There is no profound meaning

Nothing more to philosophize about

So stop already

Am I missing anything?
I feel the downward spiral

The slipping away

The closing in

The darkness

The repeating

The forgetting

The stuttering 

The long blank stares 

The guilt
Unfinished business
I had a dream and you were in it

I dreamt you were someone you’re not

In the dream we fit but real life 

Says we don’t..
You think you’re so free

I’m the one with no worry

What are you so free from?
I can’t write music if you’re sitting on my dick

And I can’t write poetry when you’re on my nuts
Glimpses
Bring the sad sap in

I’m not and never will be

rearing

I can be a narcissistic dick

If I wanna